Getting ready for the big one!

Amanda did not nurse her baby today.

:(

This is a sad weekend for me. I'm literally on the verge of tears constantly. I am so sad to go back to work on Monday. Yes, I realize it's only for 2 weeks and 3 days. I know this. But I also know that that's 2 weeks and 3 days that I'm away from my kids. My Chelsea, who throughout the day gives me hugs and kisses and tells me that I'm "the best mommy ever" and that she "missed me so long". My Gavin - my baby who turns one on Monday. One whole year. One. Where did the time go?? I feel like I've missed it. And I'm going to miss them so much on Monday.

Plus, I've been slowly weaning the boob man. I slowly got him down to morning and evening bedtime nursing, with sometimes missing the evening nursing. He's never had a bottle. We never offered formula and I was too lazy to pump, so little man has gotten very attached (pardon the pun). I nursed Chelsea for 15 months, until I got an ear infection and needed to go on stronger antibiotics. Plus, I needed to stop nursing in order for things to happen so we could have baby #2.

With Gavin, I feel like I'm weaning him too early. We don't do bottles or sippy cups of milk. He doesn't take it (Chelsea never did either). He doesn't have a favourite stuffy or blanket. He doesn't take a soother. I don't know how to comfort him without boob! He apparently gave the sitters a hard time going to bed tonight, which is unlike him.

I hate weaning. I can't cuddle him right now because he wants to nurse when I do. I'm uncomfortable and he's not happy. The reason we're weaning now is that in a month, Chris and I are going away for a few days by ourselves and we want to be sure that he's completely weaned and not missing it then. I know it's only for a few days, but not nursing my baby plus a weekend of celebrating his birthday, plus going back to work - it's too much! It's a huge reality check that he's growing up.

He's such a little man.

(and yes, we're still dealing with the rash on his chin, for my facebook friends. The flash in this picture minimizes how bad it is. It looks a lot worse in person. The doctor and the allergist both think it is something that he got into, rather than a reaction or allergy, but we are clueless as to what it was for sure. It's aggravated by the fact that he's teething and constantly drooling and so any ointment we put on, literally is washed away in minutes, and his chin is left wet and raw. I just want it healed already!)

So yeah, there's my post. I didn't mean for it to be all about nursing and weaning, so if it offended you... shush. I'm talking to you, anonymous commenter!